The Unexpected

All day today I've been thinking about a particular subject that I brought up to Lance earlier when we were on our way to church. The question was, "If anything ever happened to us and we passed...Who will take care of our kids?" I've put a lot of thought into it and feel that it isn't a subject to be taken lightly. Just thinking about it terrifies me! I can't imagine being with out my kids..let alone...my kids being with out us.

I hope and pray everyday that my family may be safe and protected where ever we go, but just like the tsunami/earthquake in Japan...no one expected it! Disasters happen inevitably and no one can predict the future!

Lance was driving when I asked him the question and he seemed hesitant to answer. So I told him what I felt. My first choice would be my parents! Now that I've had this whole day to think of it...I don't even know anymore! But when I told him, he got offended and asked why not his parents? This conversation wasn't going the way I wanted it to! lol It's not anything personal towards his family. But at the time, I was just thinking my parents because....well they raised me! I know my parents better than anyone else and I want whats best for my kids. I want someone who I can trust, who will give my kids a good life. Not that Lances parents can't do the same. Both Lance and my parents love our son's so much, it's hard to make this kind of decision. I've thought of how old each would be when my boys are in their teenage years and of course if they are too old, they wouldn't be able to give them their undivided attention.

I've thought of my sisters who I know would care and love for my kids. Especially Pearl who doesn't have kids yet. Nita already has 2 kids and 1 on the way...

I have 3 amazing brothers! My two oldest brothers are both financially stable, one has a son who lives with his mom and the other doesn't have any kids. I just can't see my kids staying with them though. Rex, my youngest brother, is so good with the kids. He is still so young though.

Lance has siblings as well, that I've thought about. His brother Ben and sis Kalani have come to mind.

Geez, this is not easy! Especially because my family lives in Utah and his in Washington. There are so many pro's and con's about everyone... I hope Lance and I will be able to come to an agreement and talk about this soon so when we do, we can look into doing our will just to be on the safe side.

What are your thoughts?? Have you ever thought about this question?

Indecisive

I hate not having my kids around. Especially if they're gone for a couple days or more. When Lances parents used to come get Dreysen to take him to Washington, he stayed for 3 weeks and it seemed like the longest 3 weeks ever. I missed him. Zee was supposed to stay with them as well but he was still a baby, I had to have at least one of my kids around lol The house was so quiet without Drey and at night, I would get all emotional thinking about him.
Anyway, I'm leaving back to Washington tomorrow morning and Dreysen is staying for 2 1/2 weeks. Lance and I will be driving back down the last week of this month. I want him to spend as much time with my family since we are no longer within driving distance from them but what I'm so indecisive about is whether or not I should leave my baby, Zeland. I can't make up my mind. I'll say he's staying, and the next day he's coming back with me lol My husband is getting so irritated that I keep changing my mind haha I put his name on my ticket just in case since he's free but the downside to that is, my flight is at 7 am...depart to Arizona, wait there 2 hours then head out to Seattle! I'm not even sure if I want him to go through all of that..let alone, I DONT want to go through having to carry him, dealing with his fussiness and carrying bags all at the same time lol My decision right now is to leave him but who knows, it might change tomorrow morning before I leave to the airport. I just know he's going to cry when he notices that I'm not around. He's at that age where he's attached to me and wants no one else but ME. I dont know what to do. It'd be nice to have some alone time with my husband but at the same time, I know if I do leave both of them, by Monday I'm gonna tell Lance, "I should of taken him with me." lol
Well, we'll see what happens:)

American Idol!

This year has such amazing talent! My favorites so far are...

 

Pia Toscano- Pia has just made herself known as the newest great diva of our times. I cannot be more impressed. There is nothing this woman cannot sing. She is a joy to hear and watch. I loved her version of Alicia Keys-Doesn't mean anything. She gives me the chills:)

Haley Reinhart- I love her voice. It's so unique! When she performed Alicia Keys-fallin, she sort of reminded me of Mariah Carey with the way she does her hands lol



Scott McCreery- I LOVE ME SOME COUNTRY! thats all I gotta say. haha