Patience

A couple weeks ago I sat down with Dreysen teaching him how to write his first and last name by himself. At first I was very calm and reassuring, and within a matter of minutes, I found myself getting really frustrated with him. I was saying things like:

• Dreysen it is so easy!
• Pay attention!
• Do it like this!
• Look right here...RIGHT HERE!
• Hold the pen like THIS!

Ahhhh! haha I'm pretty sure it was an unpleasant experience for him. I made him do it over and over and over again. It took him at least a week or so to finally get it down. Everyday after school he knows the routine: Go in the room, take his shoes and back pack off and put them away, change clothes then he has to practice writing his name over and over again, which now, he really enjoys. He always draws pictures of himself and his brother and also his favorite, Batman lol

I felt like such a mean mom. I thought back to when my mother would always yell at me if I messed up in sports or what not, and it sucks! You loose the feeling of doing whatever it is that your doing.

Lately, I find myself losing my temper a lot and have a hard to with not raising my voice and using a kind tone. I tend to boil over really silly and unimportant things.

Being a Mother is a sure test of patience. If I can't learn it now, I never will.

I think that when I am really thinking about it, and really making an effort, it is so much easier to stay calm and rational. My kids are so wonderful. They are smart, funny, healthy, kind, tender and sensitive. I love them so much. They are helpful, and capable and I expect a lot out of them.

I've been thinking a lot today about what I can do to not get to the point of losing control and acting like a kid myself. I'm learning each and everyday and my Patience is definitely one I need to work on.

I love you Dreysen and Zeland!

Thick

I Read this story from a friend and fell in love with it! Hope you enjoy it as well!

A while back, at the entrance of a gym, there was a picture of a very thin and beautiful woman. The caption was,

"This summer, do you want to be a mermaid or a whale?"

The story goes, a woman (of clothing size unknown) answered the following way:

"Dear people, whales are always surrounded by friends (dolphins, seals & curious humans), they are sexually active and raise their children with great tenderness. They entertain like crazy with dolphins and eat lots of prawns. They swim all day and travel to fantastic places like Patagonia, the Barents Sea or the coral reefs of Polynesia. They sing incredibly well and sometimes even are on cds. They are impressive and dearly loved animals, which everyone defends and admires.

Mermaids do not exist.

But if they existed, they would line up to see a psychologist because of a problem of split personality: woman or firsh? They would have no sex life and could not bear children. Yes, they would be lovely, but lonely and sad. And, who wants a girl that smells like fish by his side?

Without a doubt, I'd rather be a whale.

At a time when the media tells us that only thin is beautiful, I prefer to eat ice cream with my kids, to have dinner with my husband, to eat and drink and have fun with my friends. We women, we gain weight because we accumulate so much wisdom and knowledge that there isn't enough space in our heads, and it spreads all over our bodies. We are not fat, we are greatly cultivated. Every time I see my curves in the mirror, I tell myself: "How amazing am I?!"

As a bigger woman myself, I can't lie and say that I've never thought of being a size 2 or even better, my pre-pregnancy weight, 140 lbs. I've always been so self conscious about my weight and how I look. Lately, I haven't been too hard on myself. I've come to accept my beautiful body, my curves, my "thunder" thighs lol and much more. Of course I have those days where I get fed up but I am PROUD to say that I love my body! And I'm proud to say that I have a husband who loves ALL of me and doesn't judge the way I look.

All that matters is, I'm HAPPY, HEALTHY, have two beautiful boys and a husband...what more can I ask for?

Yay for THICK girls:) ha!

Siblings

First time in YEARS that we have been together at church. Kudo's to my 2 oldest brothers for making it to church 2 weeks straight! haha I love you guys!

The Yellow Bus

I'm so proud of Dreysen! He is doing so well with his school. No complaints when I tell him to go to bed at 9 pm or even when I wake him up at 7:30 am. Hallelujah! I thought I was going to have a hard time with him since he usually does sleep late and wake up around 10-11 in the morning lol

Anyway, I picked him up from school today and he had this sad look on his face and said to me, "Mommy? Why can't I take the bus with my friends?" I felt bad for him because everyone in his class takes the bus BUT him and pretty sure all the adults look at me like I'm some overprotective mom who doesn't trust the bus system and doesn't want to let him "grow up". lol Is it just me or am I just worrying too much that something might happen to him? That he might get on the wrong bus? or get off on the wrong stop? Even though there is an adult with them and name tags on their backpacks saying which bus they're on. I just want to be on the safe side. Me personally, I don't want him to grow up. Eventually I'll have to get over this phase but for now, I'll stick to self transportation!