The Unexpected

All day today I've been thinking about a particular subject that I brought up to Lance earlier when we were on our way to church. The question was, "If anything ever happened to us and we passed...Who will take care of our kids?" I've put a lot of thought into it and feel that it isn't a subject to be taken lightly. Just thinking about it terrifies me! I can't imagine being with out my kids..let alone...my kids being with out us.

I hope and pray everyday that my family may be safe and protected where ever we go, but just like the tsunami/earthquake in Japan...no one expected it! Disasters happen inevitably and no one can predict the future!

Lance was driving when I asked him the question and he seemed hesitant to answer. So I told him what I felt. My first choice would be my parents! Now that I've had this whole day to think of it...I don't even know anymore! But when I told him, he got offended and asked why not his parents? This conversation wasn't going the way I wanted it to! lol It's not anything personal towards his family. But at the time, I was just thinking my parents because....well they raised me! I know my parents better than anyone else and I want whats best for my kids. I want someone who I can trust, who will give my kids a good life. Not that Lances parents can't do the same. Both Lance and my parents love our son's so much, it's hard to make this kind of decision. I've thought of how old each would be when my boys are in their teenage years and of course if they are too old, they wouldn't be able to give them their undivided attention.

I've thought of my sisters who I know would care and love for my kids. Especially Pearl who doesn't have kids yet. Nita already has 2 kids and 1 on the way...

I have 3 amazing brothers! My two oldest brothers are both financially stable, one has a son who lives with his mom and the other doesn't have any kids. I just can't see my kids staying with them though. Rex, my youngest brother, is so good with the kids. He is still so young though.

Lance has siblings as well, that I've thought about. His brother Ben and sis Kalani have come to mind.

Geez, this is not easy! Especially because my family lives in Utah and his in Washington. There are so many pro's and con's about everyone... I hope Lance and I will be able to come to an agreement and talk about this soon so when we do, we can look into doing our will just to be on the safe side.

What are your thoughts?? Have you ever thought about this question?

Indecisive

I hate not having my kids around. Especially if they're gone for a couple days or more. When Lances parents used to come get Dreysen to take him to Washington, he stayed for 3 weeks and it seemed like the longest 3 weeks ever. I missed him. Zee was supposed to stay with them as well but he was still a baby, I had to have at least one of my kids around lol The house was so quiet without Drey and at night, I would get all emotional thinking about him.
Anyway, I'm leaving back to Washington tomorrow morning and Dreysen is staying for 2 1/2 weeks. Lance and I will be driving back down the last week of this month. I want him to spend as much time with my family since we are no longer within driving distance from them but what I'm so indecisive about is whether or not I should leave my baby, Zeland. I can't make up my mind. I'll say he's staying, and the next day he's coming back with me lol My husband is getting so irritated that I keep changing my mind haha I put his name on my ticket just in case since he's free but the downside to that is, my flight is at 7 am...depart to Arizona, wait there 2 hours then head out to Seattle! I'm not even sure if I want him to go through all of that..let alone, I DONT want to go through having to carry him, dealing with his fussiness and carrying bags all at the same time lol My decision right now is to leave him but who knows, it might change tomorrow morning before I leave to the airport. I just know he's going to cry when he notices that I'm not around. He's at that age where he's attached to me and wants no one else but ME. I dont know what to do. It'd be nice to have some alone time with my husband but at the same time, I know if I do leave both of them, by Monday I'm gonna tell Lance, "I should of taken him with me." lol
Well, we'll see what happens:)

American Idol!

This year has such amazing talent! My favorites so far are...

 

Pia Toscano- Pia has just made herself known as the newest great diva of our times. I cannot be more impressed. There is nothing this woman cannot sing. She is a joy to hear and watch. I loved her version of Alicia Keys-Doesn't mean anything. She gives me the chills:)

Haley Reinhart- I love her voice. It's so unique! When she performed Alicia Keys-fallin, she sort of reminded me of Mariah Carey with the way she does her hands lol



Scott McCreery- I LOVE ME SOME COUNTRY! thats all I gotta say. haha

Failed

Today was quite interesting. I've been looking for a job for a couple weeks now and I got a call back from Regence Health Care here in Tacoma. They wanted me to come in and take assessment tests and if I passed, I'll go onto an interview. So there were 3 tests: Math, Typing and a customer service video test. I knew for sure I would pass the typing and video test...the math, not so much.
Just thinking about my last jobs...every time I got a call back, I usually did well in the interviews and got the job so I was pretty confident about this one.
The math test was first. I was thinking it'll be multiple choice but I thought wrong. lol When he gave me the test I knew I was going to fail it! It was story problems and a bunch of percentages and fractions. I gave my paper to one of the guys in the HR and he starts to correct it. When his eyes reached the middle of the paper, he starts nodding his head and says "You didn't pass it so I'm going to excuse you but you do have a chance to apply for other jobs in the company" haha It's all good though. I pretty much laughed about it when I got in the car.
Since I didn't pass the math test, I wasn't able to do the typing or video one. Sucks! I was hoping that if they saw my typing test they'll be amazed at my score and just bypass my math test haha

Math was always my worst subject! lol I knew I should of paid more attention in school ;)

Play Date

We are slowly but surely starting to love Washington. We have met some great friends who share the same interests as us and also have kids who are the same age as Dreysen and Zeland. Thats a plus!
Some of us girls from the ward got together last Thursday and met at the Odssey so the kids could play. Some of the other kids couldn't make it because they were sick but there is always next time. Anyway, they had so much fun. Afterwards we took them to Mc Donalds...they all sat on their own little table while us mom's were just chatting away. Can't wait for our next play date.

Left: Egesi, Drey & Zee

Right: Max, Leila & Tarina 

So much for resolutions...

For the past 3 years since I've had Dreysen, Losing weight was always #1 on new years resolutions and the past 3 years, I've failed to even TRY to attempt to lose what I used to call my "baby fat" has now turned into just fat, cellulite, saggy etc; haha ok, not so much of the saggy part haha but you get the point. It's kind of depressing that I let my weight climb so high. I've tried dieting such as the lemon diet that Beyonce did...I lasted about 6 days of no eating, just drinking the lemon mix and I failed when Lance wanted to go to chili's and I was so tempted to eat a chocolate molten. I tried hydroxycut and I got really sick from it...it's hard. I tend to blame things on the way I grew up, we never ate healthy and just always making excuses for everything. When I was younger my weight was never a problem since I was always active playing sports but now I blame myself. I can't find the courage or will power to do anything.
I was thinking about doing the HCG diet since I've heard a lot of good results that come out of it but eating 500 calories a day for 26 days...I don't think I'll be able to survive that. Plus I don't really want to spend money on something that will just go to waste. I love food so I've come up with a plan.

I'm starting off slow!

Cutting down carbs
No soda (I've been doing good with that)
no drive thru's to mcdonalds
cut down my portions
drink a lot of water
and work out as much as I can. Even if it's twice a week or even once. It's a start!

Wish me Luck!

Trip to the ER

Trips to the ER are no fun! Zeland hardly ever gets sick so it was unusual that it was his turn this time rather than his older brother. This morning he was perfectly fine. We woke up, they ate pancakes for breakfast then they watched a little bit of t.v. and Zee was as normal as he is on any other day. 

Today was actually different since I finally decided to stop being lazy and do something fun and crafty with the boys. lol We cut and drew different kinds of shapes and I let them color it afterwards. Drey was already familiar with some of the shapes so it was fun seeing him teach his little brother how to say "circle" or "square." We did other stuff like color and trace their hands but they got pretty bored with that and started playing with their toys. 

It was around 8 pm when Zee started vomiting everything he ate and within 3 hours, He threw up at least 5 times. Checked his temperature and that was at 96. I waited for at least another hour because I would hate to go to the ER and all the doctor says is to give them plenty of fluids, which I could of done at home instead of waste my gas and $50 copay! lol But we took him in. He threw up 3 more times just in the waiting area and another in the room they put us in. I hated seeing him like this. He was snuggled in my arms the whole time then I get a call from Dreysen who was at home. He called to say that he missed me and he wanted Zee and I to come home. I was in my "proud mommy" moment thinking to myself how blessed I am to have to precious boys who depend on me to love & take care of them. I started laughing after Drey says, "I'm sick too! I go doctor" all because Zee was sick he wanted to be sick too! lol

Anyway, long story short, They needed to get blood work and they poked him on both forearms and couldn't get blood until the 4th try. I was already irritated with the doctor because my poor son his crying his eye's out while they poke him for nothing! I know it's to be expected that drawing blood isn't always going to be successful on your 1st try, but come on...4 times! 

He is doing a lot better. He threw up again when we got home but he should be fine once we get his prescription tomorrow morning.

It's getting late, Lance just got home from work so I'm hittin' the sheets! Night:)